AS much as what happened on Sunday night (Australian time) is in the past, its funny how it finds its way back into your mind.
The Second Ashes Test was one of the those crazy experiences.
This time last week I wasn't going to have any part in the game, then 30 minutes before the start of play Glenn McGrath rolls his ankle - and no, I didn't slip the ball under his foot.
Four days later and I'm a massive part of what's being called one of the great Test matches.
Since that final morning my mind has drifted away at different times into thoughts of what I could have differently with that delivery from Steve Harmison that got me out.
How the series could be so much different had that ball deflected one metre wider of the keeper and found its way to the boundary.
Getting out two runs short of victory is not going to haunt me but the memories are still a little fresh.
The knife-twisting part of it is that television replays showed my bottom hand was off the bat when the ball hit.
At the time, it all happened so quickly.
Back in the dressing room, the guys asked what hand had it hit and I wasn't too sure.
Had I been the bowler, I would have been dirty had the verdict been not out.
It was very hard to pick up what had actually happened.
At the start of that fourth day's play, myself, Brett and Shane had set a plan to keep things simple and see how we go.
By the time I was in the middle, Brett was pretty pumped, saying C'mon mate, we're going to do this.
For me, even when I am bowling, if I'm too fired up, I'm no good.
While Brett was wound up, I tried to keep less than wound up.
We often joked between overs, trying to keep life a little light.
I remember the suggestion that we've got a good two days to score these runs was something that came up.
We worked in tens, to get the target, under 50 then under 40 and so on.
The one time a bit of emotion came out was when a no-ball from Andrew Flintoff went for four byes and all of a sudden we were under 10.
That was the point when we knew this was for real.
Of course the end result was a loss and now we have a tied series which has really captivated everyone in England, and, from what I hear, back home as well.
There's a real sense of belief in the team that even though we lost, we showed we can fight our way out of any situation.
The determination in the side has grown, particularly with one big Queensland opener who is ready to make a big impact in the Third Test.
The Old Trafford pitch is quite bare one of the boys compared it to an Indian wicket.
My old Bulls captain Stuart Law has his home ground here and, with Murali in their Lancashire side at the start of the year, the wickets were turning a bit.
However in the last four-day game, 570 played 640.
As we saw last week, anything is possible to anyone in this series, you just have to be ready ? written by Australian fast bowler Michael Kasprowicz exclusively for APN